Tomorrow is the first day of meteorological autumn. I have waited for this day all summer, and now it is here. Actually, all of 2009 has been a journey from one life to another. The path I was on has been radically altered and these past three months have been packed with change for me personally.
I started the year as a business consultant; I am entering fall as a Christian writer looking forward to a ministry through Amazing Grays-Amazing Grace. This has been a summer of political activism, at least in my blogging and articles. That assignment is nearly completed and another looms ahead.
This weekend proved that my approach to my horses must also change. The signs have been there all year; I received the final ‘lecture’ Saturday night. For more than two decades I have been learning how to train and lead horses, teaching them to mold their response based upon the frame set by my body position in the saddle. I can no longer give that direction well due to the rapid deterioration of my right knee. My horses react to my weight and balance. My balance is no longer reliable.
In the future I must share the responsibility with Bo and Swizzle, allowing them to assume some of the load. Obedience will still be required, but I must let go of some of the control and cede it to them. I ask my horses to trust me from the moment we first meet. Now I must return the favor and trust them more.
God will bless this change; indeed, He engineered it. He continues to teach me through my relationship with my gray horses. It seems that as we walk ever closer with the Lord our need for control, and our connection to the physical realm, must gradually fade.
My lesson? Faith. God will establish us if we let Him. Once He has, we are required to walk out in faith. Now I get it.
Do you wonder how you could possibly do the work God suggests to you? I did. But, I promise you; He will not ask you to do anything without also equipping you. He’s still loading my backpack… but the contents are wildly different than they would have been last year, or even yesterday.
Today is a pivotal day for me. I haven’t graduated yet, but I am being measured for a cap and gown. Like all education, we complete one level only to begin a new course of study. New assignments will be given tomorrow. It seems odd that I am not excited or filled with anticipation. It feels more like a simple fact, just as unremarkable as my expectation that the sun will rise in the east again tomorrow.
How can that be? Oh, yes…trust.

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